Thursday, May 01, 2008 ♥
Failure ♥ 12:24 AM
For the first time in my 1.5 years in uni, i flunk a mid semester. Even though I'm away from a pass by 1.5 marks, i never gotten this low before. Even in Company law, i still managed 60 plus marks.
It doesn't matter that the average is 52%. I didn't do well is the matter. There goes the high distinction.
I haven't felt failure for such a long time. So this is how it feels. Somehow, this feeling is so foreign, perhaps it has been a long time since i had this feeling.
Maybe you are right, this is a wake up call. To remind myself. To pull myself together in place again. To find that self-discipline I once had. To stop playing so much.
It is strange how i have such a high expectation of myself. My parents don't even care. Ok, maybe they do but they don't show it. All they ask is that i do my best. How ironic.
I had a good cry about it. Thanks for hearing me out and gave me a short lecture on the pros of failing. Maybe you are right. It's not too late. I can do it.
Or maybe I should quit school now and go marry a rich guy. Relax, I'm kidding. I'm better than this:)
♥ Princess Serene