Wednesday, March 14, 2007 ♥
Addicted to "Heroes" ♥ 9:03 PM
For the last 3 days of my life, i had been glued in front of my laptop watching the 1st season of the new series, "Heroes" when i could have done more productive stuff. I'm not saying that "Heroes" sucks because then i wouldn't be wearing my butt out in front of the laptop right? In fact, it is so fanastic that i would recommend it to you people. Be warned though, you will get addicted.
I don't know about you but every time i do something that has no outcome, i feel that what i did is meaningless. And every time, Ecclesiastes 1:2 pop into my mind.
"Vanity of vanities, all is vanity"
Then my mind will drift off and i wonder why i'm studying so much, why i need so much clothes, why i need these why i need that when eventually i'm gonna die and all these would be in vain. Seriously, have you thought of this?
Of course i can't just abandon everything and wait for the day i die. That would be insane in this world where the saying ' money makes the world go round' is so true. Honestly, there had been times when i doubt in this very God who loves me so much. Like, will i really go to heaven?
When i was young, i thought that i should try making everything a win win situation which means that while getting points to enter heaven, i should as well enjoy myself on earth. Anyway, who knows, i might not enjoy singing Hallelujahs in heaven so i might as well enjoy a little here in earth before i go. That was when i was young.
Now that i grew up, i know better. That in the future, i might as well love singing those Hallelujahs. How hard can that be compared to doing those endless assignments? Ok, kidding. I really love Bro Darya's analogy about why we probably enjoy praising God in heaven forever and ever. I think i seriously give my Religious Education(RE) teachers a hard time with all my questionings. Those who know me will know, the countless times you guys sighed in exasperation because of my sometimes stupid questions. Ok, back to this analogy. He told us about how as a child we love toys and treasure them so much but when we grow up, these toys are not as important as they seemed anymore. I hope this is true in Heaven. You know, being in heaven is gonna be a really long term thingy. In RE class, we joked about heaven and hell. I remember jon(i think) said that between heaven and hell, heaven seems like a better choice of the only two we can chose so yeah. That seems to be just a light hearted joke but then seriously i rather be in heaven because hell is gonna be a big hawt sauna. I love saunas but not that much.
Ok, i don't know what i'm trying to say here. I'm kinda of confused myself but what i know is, i should really spend more time talking with my Father above. It has been a long time since we have a long talk. Sometimes, i feel so hypocritical when i talk so much to Him only when i need His help? I really feel ashamed of myself but then again, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak:P
♥ Princess Serene