Friday, July 07, 2006 ♥
Happy and sad in a day ♥ 6:20 PM
Desite vomiting for at least 6 times, i was pretty cheerful for a sick person. I even went on a little shopping spree before meeting Mad cow and Ernie for my
Ok, i digress. As i was saying, we met for dinner and Mad cow being the cameraman, always bring his camera around, a good habit that i'm trying to cultivate. Anyway, I wanted to eat at my favourite Japanese restaurant at Plaza Singapura but it seems that had shut down-_-" In the end, we went to Ichiban Sushi. Not bad actually. I refused to put up any videos because both sneaky guys didn't tell me when they were taking video. I thought Madcow was just testing out his camera only. The videos ooze cuteness and i'm afraid that if i put them up on my blog, somebody might kidnap me. We went to Macdonalds after dinner for supper. I honestly can't understand why both Mad cow and Ernie is so stick thin. NOT FAIR!
Both guys using the V sign i taught them for extra cuteness:)
Thank you Mad cow for the FABULOUS dinner!
Later at night...
Even before i go over to Perth, i had been called names. Behind my back. By somebody i trust. WHY?
All i want is a fresh start. Why is it that I'm not even given a chance to start anew? I wouldn't even half minded if you call me names, after i reached there. Right now, i don't even wish to join the camp despite Lisa saying that i would be just fine and the sisters will take care of me. I suppose guys are just crude and devoid of feelings. I didn't know that i'm so hurt until tears started rolling off my cheeks. I rant and rant to God about how unfair it was that i'm not even given a chance for a fresh start and why is it so that i'm always so unlucky. I always tried to be as sinless as i can be but now, i'm wondering whether that was really worth the effort. Unfortunate things always befall on me:(
After i stopped complaining to God, i suddenly stopped crying. I just don't know why. I felt serene and it seems that God was hugging me. Have you got that kind of sensation before? It always happened at the saddest point of my life when nobody can understand me and i feel so alone.
I'm so sorry that i'm complaining about the most childish thing in the world but i'm hurt all the same.
♥ Princess Serene
