Saturday, April 08, 2006 ♥
About death ♥ 10:22 PM
Nobody likes to talk about death especially when a loved one may be dying or because he/she is already getting on with age. Frankly speaking, my first experience of losing a loved one is very painful(whose isn't?). Yes, i still miss Max very much but i hope that i'll meet him in heaven. At that time, it was very sudden and i was in denial because my cousin called me to inform me. So sorry that i called you a liar and said unpleasant stuff to you that day, Pei Si.
Recently, i kept thinking about how i would feel if my family members leave. I hope that they will believe in God and be baptised into my church because that is the only way that they would get into heaven. I wish that i have that magically power to convince people to believe in the true God then when we die, i would meet each other in heaven and even if anybody leave this world suddenly, i wouldn't be so upset knowing that we would meet again one day.
Even so, i believe to a certain extent, there would be sadness at the parting. Due to my previous unpleasant experience, i hope that if anybody dies, let it be a slow death. I mean at least i could see them for the last time before they leave. I know its very selfish of me but in the end, it would be God's will. In the matter of death, only God have a say. Who am i to demand who dies when.
I really hope that my dad get baptised soon. As i had mentioned earlier, i don't know when he is going to go. Every day, i just have to pray fervently for God to take care of him where ever he is. I'm so envious of those people whose whole family believed. Some times they don't know how fortunate they are which really annoy me. Most of my close relatives are not believers yet but still it is hope that keep us alive so i really look forward to the day when they accept Christ.
One more thing, i just want to let everybody know that i LOVE you all although some of you are mean to me or break your promises. I will bear no grudges against anybody on my dying day.
♥ Princess Serene
