Wednesday, March 01, 2006 ♥
Sad ♥ 6:39 PM
I know what God planned for me will be the best,
For i'm the child of God- no less.
Yet, when failures come like a slap in the face,
I can't help but wonder where's God grace.
So help me LORD, to be strong in my faith,
To believe in Your will and what you had saith.
When the fog dissipates and clear skies come,
Then I will understand Your will in the calm.
Serene Chan
So i didn't do as well as i wanted to. Perhaps in my bid to go overseas to study, i subconsciously didn't put in my best. I suppose i'm blessed to be born into a family who could afford to send me overseas. But i still feel a sense of animosity towards my mum for forcing me into something i'm not passionate about. That's me. I got to do something i'm interested in or else, i won't do it as well as i would like to. Very irresponsible but that's my character. I turned down many jobs because i don't believe in their product. Either that or i feel that it doesn't improve people's lives. Okie, i digress.
Still, i want to blot out the unhappy memories of the past 2 years. Its too painful. How would you feel if people take you for granted, didn't make any close friends in JC, the biasness between siblings, being told that you are a pain in the neck despite trying hard to bring joy into people's lives, a close friend left you slowly because of a girl and that you are INSIGNIFICANT, making nonesoever improvement on others lives.
I just want to leave this place, even if it means leaving precious memories. I'm like a dog who have to hide in a corner licking its wound until it heals. When my wounds heal, i might come back. Might.
♥ Princess Serene
