Thursday, August 04, 2005 ♥
Feels funny ♥ 8:30 PM
I don't know. I feel weird and surprised that my piano exams is tomorrow. Its feels... strange like "hey! ITS MY PIANO EXAMS TOMORROW!"
Could it be that i'm ill prepared and that i'm afraid of failing? I guess i'm just affected by my teacher's often demoralising lessons. The words she said to me sting where it hurts. Ouch! but i will refuse to let somebody else's words bring me down.
But this is the only year that i felt so unsure about myself taking my exams. In fact i had a nightmare last night about my piano exams. I dreamt that whatever i played is wrong and the worst thing was that the examiner wanted me to play the organ!
For a long time, i haven't felt fear. Even when i didn't study for my mid year exams, I had not experienced that kind of fear i had during my dream. So this is bad... really bad. Damn!
Whatever it is, i would just pray to God that whatever i dreamt will not happen to me. It was just another horrid dream. I trust with the simple faith that God will help me since i had already did what i should.
♥ Princess Serene
