Sunday, July 17, 2005 ♥
Fear of the piano teacher ♥ 4:38 PM
Every Sunday, i will have premonition about Monday when i have to go for my piano lesson. You see, as my piano teacher is pregnant, she have hormones that are so unstable, she have mood swings like a teenager which is bad news for me.
I don't understand why i have the misfortune to take my piano exams when she is getting pregnant. Her tantrums are so bad that i often end lessons in tears... outside her home. When i was younger, my ability to control my tears is not good so i end up in tears in class. This result in more scoldings and threats from her. One threat i vividly remembered was that she will kick me out of class if i continue to cry.
So right now, i'm psychologically scarred. I fear attending her lesson that i always end up trembling like a poor puppy after every lesson. I really hate myself for not having the gift of a good memory.
On the other hand, i thought teachers are supposed to help me, not bring me down? So maybe, i should think about getting a good piano teacher. One like my ex- violin teacher who is super patient with me and always encourage me. I don't recall him scolding me although i didn't practise. He just ask whether i was very busy with my school work that week which might be a reason why i didn't practise. Too bad, he had the misfortune of having a bad knee so he couldn't teach me anymore.
Sigh... its so difficult to find a good teacher like him but i pray that one day, i will manage to find a good piano teacher who motivates me and maybe heal those wounds inflicted on me by my current teacher.
♥ Princess Serene
